A Better Day!

I am feeling so good today! I was having a really bad day yesterday.... nothing seemed to be going right, and I was feeling so overwelmed. I worked out last night and after leaving the gym I felt great. I felt energized and complete. I felt as though I had a sense of accomplishment. I am so happy that I went to the gym as appose to just going home and sitting on the coach soaking in my horrible mood. I went home happy and with a smile on my face. I played this silly fish game with my son last night. My son's name is javoni, and he is a beautiful loving toddler. Javoni even seems happier with my attitude. I woke up this morning feeling ready to go. I got ready without dragging my feet. I am taking my day easy. I know that there are good days and bad days, and boy yesterday was difficult. I think it was just because of everything happening at once. I am going to take it easy tonight and just relax with the family. Every Wednesday is family night, so I don't go anywhere. I think that it is so important to dedicate one day out of the week to the family only. It is something that keeps us together during our busy lives. My mother, sister, brother, fiance, and my son all hang out. Sometimes we watch a movie, go shopping, cook dinner, and just talk about our lives. It is wonerful!

I am now into the toughest part of my quest! I am losing weight but getting so tired! I have been working so hard and I am on the go all the time. If it is not one thing than it is another! I am not trying to complain but I am exhausted. I have lost some weight, but I am tired. I am working out and eating good..... I have had a couple of slip ups. Like yesterday I had a pack of skittles! So bad for you, but they tasted so good! lol! I felt so guilty and worked out for an extra half an hour.

The most challenging thing in life can be setting a goal and going through with it. I find that it is not doing something that is challenging, but following through with what you say you are going to do. I have given birth over 22 months ago, and the saying “I just had a baby” is well over expired! I think as a woman it can be challenging to admit to ourselves that after given birth we have put on a little more than just stretch marks. For me, I have finally realized that it is time to do something about it. I am going to lose my baby weight, which means that I need to lose 20 pounds.
I think that this will by far be one of the most challenging things that I have set for myself to do. I say this because it will require time and dedication. I am dedicating three days a week at the gym with a work out of no less than one hour. As a full time employee, full time mother, part time college student, this is going to be a challenge. I am excited about this quest I have set for myself because I think that I am going to learn how strong I really am. I do not just mean strong physically but also mentally and emotionally. I think that it is going to be a very strenuous process, but I am dedicated to during this for one month. That means that I will be at the gym twelve times in one month. That is more exercise than I have had since high school! I know that this quest is not only going to affect me, but my family. This is going to be a very positive experience. I think that this will push me to do more activities with my family that require being energetic. I am so excited to be more active and involved with running, swimming, and do the activities with my son that are interesting to hi I am however worried about the m. time away from my home. As those who have children that are toddlers, they need more attention. I am worried that my son is going to feel that I am gone more and notice. These are just my concerns that I have. I thought that it would be a good idea to include my concerns because this is the reason that I have essentially procrastinated for so long.
I think that dedicating yourself to a goal can be very challenging and sometimes overwhelming to complete. I think that without goals and accomplishments, humans would be bored. Humans need something to strive for, something to be proud of. My quest will be challenging but in the end, to say that I did it and have something to show for will be so rewarding. I want to be a role model for my son.